“This is just for a short time. It’s not forever. You’ll get through this.”
These are words that I tell myself often, but today I heard myself saying them to a friend. A friend who begins her first chemo treatment tomorrow. The words felt empty. I’m a complete fraud. As if I have the first idea what she’s going through and how she feels. “Just a short time.” Sounds logical, but when that time involves suffering, suffering which is inevitable, it can feel like forever.
She’s so brave, my friend. Though she wouldn’t admit it. Her strength comes in her ability to face and confront reality. It can be easy to deny the truth. To deny her illness and the battle she’s facing. Even to allow herself to go to some of the most dark places our minds can take us. But in moderation, she deals. In short spurts she tries to process this reality that seems to be so cruel and illogical. And she does this with grace and acceptance.
“I need to live my life,” she said. She doesn’t want this to prevent her from traveling or making plans or finding other ways to do the things she loves while she fights. These words apply to us all. Are we merely surviving, or really living our lives? In the face of something that can take that life, it can be easier to see things more clearly. But in the everyday doldrums, we tend to just try to “get through this.”
So perhaps my advice was not good at all. Because every day is another chance for life, not just something to plow through; even if that day involves a fight for that life.
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