Why is it so difficult to have patience? Or is it just me?
I’m a strange one. This is no new news I’m sure to you all. But I guess I’m finding that I’m one of those people who likes to make plans and know what’s coming while also enjoying the mystery of the unknown adventures that lie ahead. I don’t need security enough that I want to live in the same place all of my life, but I also need a safe, stable place to return to in order to re-energize and renew. It’s a balancing act I suppose. Part of me wants the extreme while the other detests it. And then there’s the practical side of me that just says to be responsible.
So I’m in a transitioning period of my life. In my head I know this should be a beautiful time; it is a gift really. A time of anticipation, reflection, rejuvenation; but it can also be one of anxiety, doubt and grief. If I allow myself to believe that the best or even the worst is behind me I surely deceive myself. I merely need to be present. Use the time not to pressure myself into doing for the sake of doing. To give myself time and make wise investments and choices; understanding that things that are worth doing take time.
It sounds as though I’m going in circles in my head, and I probably am, but I think it’s that I’m just not accustom to doing things I actually like to do. I’ve always equated work with something I don’t want to do but need to do for someone else. Now I’ve been given an opportunity, a time to do with what I please. I’m still working towards something, but because it’s what I am passionate about, it doesn’t feel like work. Hence the guilt. Strange to be wired in such a way, but it’s what I’ve known for most of my life. Perhaps what most of us have known.
So how do we make a society in which more people can work without feeling like they’re working? How can we make jobs that fit people instead of people fitting a job? Isn’t that the kind of society we want to live in? Perhaps there would be initial compromises which would cause some financial loss, but I would think that in the long run it would be an investment worth making; not only in humanity but for capitalism if that’s what we also want to preserve. But how do we get there? Maybe we make some plans while also leaving things open ended and flexible for change; forcing us to become better problem solvers and more compassionate human beings. Maybe we need more patience. With others. And with ourselves.
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